Life As I Know It.

Well, the time has come.

I am finally applying to college. I am applying to Georgia Tech. I can’t really tell if this is more for me or if this is for everyone else who wants me to become an engineer. I have no idea what I want to do. I thought maybe web designer, but i’m not even good at computers. I’d like to do art and literature, but I can’t write poetry and I wouldn’t be able to support myself off of art.

This is really difficult. No matter what, I really want to move to Atlanta. I feel like being in a city with so much culture will help me figure out what I need to do.

I also think i’m going to upload my art to here. I think that will somehow make me feel better. It’s not like i’ve had writer’s block. It’s more like i’ve just been in a slump. I don’t think I have any talent, and that’s why I can’t figure out what career I want. I’m sure i’ll figure it out.

On the plus side, I know where I want to work. I’d like to work for Google. I think that would be a good balance of creativity and engineering. I think it will be good for me. And I need to start listening to my own opinions.

This post is really sappy… I need to stop doing that.

Goodnight, and Thanks For All the Fish

If anyone got the reference from the title, you deserve every happiness in the world. (I also realize it is so long, but as this is a goodnight post rather than a goodbye forever as I venture through the galaxy post, the title shall remain)

Anyways, a few things. First, i’m probably not done messing with my theme and tweaking it so that my readers and I will actually enjoy it. Secondly, I wanted to share the real point of this post.

Which is to tell you the purpose of renaming my blog. It used to be “This Is A Blog” for all you newbies. And that worked, obviously. But I changed it to something more meaningful. Yin & Pepper refers to the imbalance in my life right now. Yin & Yang and Salt and Pepper perfectly fit together. They are pairs. But when you separate them and attempt to mash them with something else, there can be chaos. Which is what is happening with my mind. As I get closer and closer to college, I get closer and closer to having to decide what I want to do with my life. And it just so happens that my two passions are art and engineering. Art referring to all things artistic, literary and otherwise meaningful. Engineering meaning all things robotics, existentialist, and ingenious. And it’s hard. It’s hard to mash these two loves together, because I don’t want one without the other. Both of them make me so very happy, and yet it causes such inner chaos. Perhaps that’s why I chose Yin & Pepper. Yin & Pepper are both the dark side of their counterparts. Without their partners, they are in darkness. But until I figure out how to balance myself once and for all, I shall remain in this over dramatic state of inner turmoil.

Anywho, i’m off to read Brave New World and build a robot.

Resolutions, So Maybe 2012 Won’t be as Disorganized as Every Other Year.

Well, New Year’s is fast approaching and I honestly didn’t realize it until today. I’m terrible with dates and times and whatnot, so it’s to be expected, but still. Since i’ve been terrible at updating this thing, i’m making this post to make my blog a bit more active and maybe sort out a few thoughts. I still haven’t really figured what my New Year’s Resolutions are, so i’m going to do that right now. You know, if my brain ever starts working.

1. Get better at the ukulele and finally do a two-hour set at the coffee shop. I really want to get good at the ukulele, so I need to start practicing more. Everyday, if I can. Also, there is a coffee shop downtown that I like to perform at on Open Mic Night, but i’ve never done a two-hour set because I chicken out, even though they have asked me a few times. But I will do it this year! Really.

2. Save at least $10 a month. I’m really truly terrible at saving money. Even though I need money for a trip to Europe and college. But darn me, I can’t help it when I see a freakin pair of shoes. But this year, I will save ten dollars a month, and I am NOT allowed to spend any of it. It is for COLLEGE. Get that through your head, Savannah.

3. Get all A’s. I know that is the clichéd resolution, but I will be getting all A’s so I can get into Tech. I have to start thinking about my future unfortunately.

4. Drink only clear liquid. I know this one is completely ridiculous. But it limits me to water and sprite. Which means I will be healthier and my teeth shant get stained with coffee and coke and whatnot. I may allow myself one colored drink a month though. Because Starbucks is cruel.

5. Try writing again. I’ve pretty much given up on writing. But I want to so badly. So i’m going to try again, and maybe i’ll like my work. I’m reading this book “Letters to a Young Poet” by Rainer Maria Rilke. It’s really good, and I think it’ll help me write. Combining that with the movie “Midnight in Paris”, and I am completely ready to start writing again. I highly suggest you read/watch both of those. Both very good.

I can’t really think of anything else honestly…. clean and whatnot. Uhh…. Yeah, that’s about it. I love fresh starts, but I don’t know. I’m not so sure about 2012. I have a weird feeling about it. Not like an “I’m gonna die.” feeling. More like i’m not gonna have a good year. But we’ll see. This year will bring the start of my Senior year and my 18th birthday, so it’s gotta be good. I’m just a pessimist.

p.s.

6. Stop being a pessimist.