I like the early morning cold
That comes in a lonely fall
When the other creatures
In a no-man’s dreamland.
It is not bitter
It is soft.
It is gentle in the way
That a friend will
Put their hand on
When you have forgotten
Your good qualities
Or cast them into doubt.
Ok. You know how when you make a little change, you suddenly want to change everything for the better? Well, i’m going to change up my blog. It’s going to be aesthetically and mentally pleasing. Maybe i’ll even change the name. But just a heads up, my loyal readers, there’s about to be some change up in hurrr. Maybe it will inspire me to change more of my life.
I haven’t been on here in some time. Perhaps i’ve been going through writer’s block, but it’s probably much more than that. I have an exorbitant amount of stress you see, as I am unsure of whether or not I can get into the college I want. Or if I even want to be an engineer anymore. A lot of life questions. I once read a quote somewhere. Hmm… ah! It was this. “An infinite question is often destroyed by finite answers. To define everything is to annihilate much that gives us laughter and joy.” I wonder if the same goes for the opposite. If a finite question is destroyed by infinite answers. If nothing else, the infinite answers would destroy the mind.
I’d like very much to write more. Maybe not even write. Perhaps just read. I’ll be starting a literary blog very soon with some friends of mine. It’s hard for me to choose a major. There are so many things to do and so little time. If I could sit in a room and debate the meanings of literature all day, i’d probably be a lot happier than a lot of people. But at the same time I love building things. I love technology. So i’m trying to solve this finite question puzzle. What can I do with my life, I ask myself.
And I haven’t found that answer yet. It may be a large answer that fills twelve spreadsheets and is color coded by date and subject and that will require a large amount of patience and speed. Or it may be simple. It may be two words long. I’d like help. I’d like to ask someone I trust, “What should I do with my life?” But if you think about it, if you really trust them, they’ll force you to find the answer for yourself.
Anyways, I promised more posts and I didn’t deliver. But I will. I’ll post quotes or some art of mine or anything and everything. It’ll get better.
It will get better.
There are so many things I would like to do with this blog, and so many things I would like to do with my life in general. But it’s not what I want to do that’s the problem, it’s how I shall accomplish those things. Like, for instance, i’d like to make this blog completely humor like The Oatmeal or Hyperbole & A Half. But unfortunately i’m selfish and I like to shove my life story down people’s throats. Well… not exactly. But I do tend to fill this thing up with personal things. And it occurs to me that my life isn’t funny enough for me to explain everyday on this thing… But i’ll probably attempt at it later. This post gave me a really great idea…
Anyways, point is, there are a lot of things I want to do. And now that it’s Christmas break, it’s a good time to change some things. Pick up some good habits and what not. Maybe grow up a little.
I’ll be working out on a regular basis, on my own. Key words: on my own. I work out on a semi regular basis because of swim team, but it still occurs to me that I am a lazy bum. I don’t know why i’m even typing this, but it occurs to me that if I say it enough, maybe i’ll actually do it. I’m also considering giving up all drinks but water for all of next year, for my New Year’s resolution. A good friend of mine did it. Then again, he probably has craploads more self-control than I do. But i’m considering it. The health benefits would be massive, i’m assuming. I wonder if I could have milk in my cereal….
Here’s a picture of a glass of water for absolutely no one’s benefit.
I almost had a heart attack. I thought my post had been deleted. But.. it didn’t…
Anyways, writing this gave me a great idea for a decently funny post. So I will be working on that tomorrow. And…. I’m gonna write a poem. Maybe. If I ever get enough inspiration. Some people are so good at it. But i’m excited, because i’ll be taking AP Lang next semester, and that should force me to take in some culture.
I need to start this thing.
Granted, I have a good excuse for not doing it, considering I have no Internet, but i’m still being lazy about it.
Anyways, this is my blog. And I’ve no idea what I shall fill it with, considering I’m a lazy bum who won’t give ten minutes to type words. But I’ll just continuously type until a purpose appears.
In relation to what I am doing right now, I am lying in bed watching That 70’s Show, and suffering from some unidentified illness that has decided to plague me on the week of Thanksgiving. Oh, nope, nevermind. Now I’m watching Family Guy. But anyways, I am devastatingly bored. There are sooooo many things that I could be doing right now other than this, things that would probably be quite helpful. But no, I’ll just lie here in utter agony as some sort of virus slowly eats away at my insides. Oh well. I really should be knitting right now, or swimming, or reading about quantum mechanics. But instead I sit here and melt my brain with hours of tv. Ah. This is my life.